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This is actually a direct word from God. He used some ad in the mail to tell me this after I left Calvary Aurora because somehow that church really hurt my heart. I have no idea if it was ALL my fault or if they did something that I just don't realize they did or what. I was being judgmental towards some of them, that was definitely part of it. I have a bad habit of putting way too much emphasis on the future and then judging whether or not some people will be close enough to God to 'make it'. I was also labeling people, I didn't know that was a form of judgment but it is! I was labeling them things like 'stray', 'wolf', 'friend', and even 'family'. I can't do that. Not even 'friend' is okay because then I want people to uphold a certain standard of living to be my 'friend'. Like seeking Jesus through prayer, singing only Christian songs, etc. Just because people don't want to do what I want to do, doesn't mean anything and I can't label who like what I like as friend and people who don't like what I like as enemy or wicked. I'm a slow learner sometimes.

After I decided not to go back to Calvary Aurora again, God gave me this as a confirmation after about a month, just that one day, I haven't gotten anymore but He used a song on the radio to go with it (don't remember the song anymore). I haven't forgotten what He said, I'm just finally making it an art piece.

I do believe His message to me is to be careful what it is that I think about and what I say, because He can hear my thoughts, and it hurt's my heart which can hurt Him. And it can hurt the other spirit-filled people through the Spirit. I knew that what I think about can hurt my own heart but I had no idea that the Spirit would let the other spirit-filled people feel my hurt too. I don't want other's to feel me suffering and that scares me so I'm a lot better since I haven't gone back to Calvary but I can't just forget about them either because they follow the Spirit so well I'm jealous of them but too afraid of myself to go back there.

How does one control one's thoughts? If anyone knows, please tell me. I've been doing everything I can to direct my thoughts towards Jesus and not towards other people. It's very hard.
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2910x2209px 427.86 KB
Make
Motorola
Model
XT1030
Shutter Speed
1/2077 second
Aperture
F/2.4
Focal Length
4 mm
ISO Speed
160
Date Taken
Jan 6, 2015, 11:37:10 AM
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